I Wanna Feel Weightless~

Finally 16!

2010-01-01T00:00:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday to me, Happy Birthday to me~
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday to me~
Happy Birthday to me. =D

LOL. Couldn't invite friends to my house for bbq party~
Sorry yea, cause my relatives are coming over and its like 30+ ppl in my house?
My parents don't want more visitors, =O
so yea -.-
Anyway, Ismail ran to his new blog. =D
Please relink! Thank you~

http://drugged-no-more.blogspot.com/
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Marina Maria~

2009-12-30T21:53:00.000+08:00

Had fun. =)
Pictures will be posted in facebook or blogs of Jiahui or Sheau jing~

Succumbed by Weakness.

2009-12-30T21:51:00.001+08:00

I feel pissed.
First some snide comments.
Then something i'd rather people telling me,
than just keeping me in the dark.
If there's something that you'll think would hurt me, just ~~fucking~~ shout it to me.
Don't wait for me to hear it in a conversation.
~~Fucking~~ just pisses me off.

I'm a bomb when i'm close to her.
Her touch burns my skin with electricity,
her voice rings in my head,
her eyes burn right through me.
A weakness that i've somehow developed.
Its like a drug.
Somehow you like it. but it hurts you inside out.

Well i've learnt a few things around you*
To shut up from saying anything stupid that comes from my heart that may hurt you.
To just drown my feelings, sometimes numbing me all over.
To build a wall around me. stoping from anyone to hear my throbbing heart beating for you.
To stop from losing it. Losing it when others give snide remarks.
To give all & expect NOTHING in return

You know I'm tired.
Tired of just drowning myself, not showing.
not showing what i really feel.
I'm not being stubborn, I want to be stubborn.
To just shout out what i want. Don't think of other comments about me.
buts its tiring not fighting, just hearing what others say.
At least if you fight, you can feel the adrenaline rush and the challenge of it.
lol.

But i feel. I feel that i'm finally getting over this drug. =)
The feeling is slowly.slowly fading away.

The Princess who finally found his Prince.

2009-12-30T07:50:00.002+08:00

.
Happy Birthday To you, Sheau jing, xD
Hope you & your prince have a long long fun time together in that castle of yours~
let the prince who killed all the dragons outside the castle die -.-
ouh, and go TAN yourself lar, then more compatible, xP

Vague thoughts.

2009-12-30T07:46:00.001+08:00

Its been a long journey for us, haven't it.
For all those out there, a year has passed without us probably noticing it.
treasure your time, use it wisely"
Live your Life to the fullest. =)

Have not been in a mood to blog recently. =)
its all in a mess, my head.
sometimes i stone. just looking out of my window.
just appriciating the small little details that people just ignore while they walk past.
somethings wrong with me.

Before 12am yesterday,
I almost forgot to call & wish a person Happy Birthday,
like i always do..
Maybe my feelings are going away? =D
~~shit.fuck.damn.~~
~~My Heart still throbs for you.~~
Anyway, should i have a girlfriend when i go to poly or Jc? xD
I want to, but somehow, I'm sick of girls.
Lets see which idiot can make my heart beat the way she wants it to.
lol.

I want to be myself when i was sec3, =D
I was really free that time, doing what i want. =)
I thought i had no boundaries~
The sky was the limit. =D
& i didn't study that much, my results deproved like KAO. xD
My dad kept on scolding me.lol.

Well, Its 30th of december & I'm going out later with the gang of 13..
for a pot-luck~
Hope we have fun. =)

SMILE! =D

2009-12-30T07:06:00.000+08:00

Ismail's smile changes alot.
It goes from...
=)
=')
='l
=/
=O
=S
='(
='X
='D
=')
=)

I need a Psychotherapist sooner or later.

Today's yesterday~

2009-12-30T07:04:00.000+08:00

Went Jogging with Faris & Hasjmy. =D
Had to wait for that Faris in school for 1hour? -.-
saw some of the 3E1 suffering, xD
LOL.
He finally showed up at about 8am there...
Bryan overslept -.-
Went back to school to change, then went to Jiayi's house~
met Bryan there.

Went out shopping~
Reached home at 5pm. =D

Today's Yesterday's Yesterday~

Went out with Joinng & Ericia, go watch Sherlock Holmes, =D
Was Alright bah, =)
but Sherlock Holmes is Awesome!
Can deduce what the opponent will do next while fighting. LOL
Went around Suntec the whole day shop for presents~
Was a fun day. =D

Someone.Kill.My.Boredom.

2009-12-26T22:52:00.003+08:00

Confirm ah.
I need a holiday from "Zakum Ver. 30" xD
When near it, Ismail is a pile of wreck.
He doesn't act himself, keeps on being very jerky,
keep on staring into space or just daydreaming,
He will have moodswing like KAO~

Spent the day at Jo Inng's house,
those idiots didn't want to watch movie today. =O
so, stuck there watching them make christmas presents~

Didn't feel like blogging yesterday. =)
Went to JiaHui house after my friday prayers. =O
Celebrated with gang of 13.
Didn't feel comfortable. =/
haha. I have the PERFECT gift for Edwin! =D
just that i have not given it to him yet, xP
pictures at Jiahui house can be viewed at facebook~

Why?

2009-12-25T02:15:00.001+08:00

*deleted post*
I thought too much, too emo, so yea, deleted.

I need someone, to help me.
just help me.
cause somehow, i don't know.don't know .
anyone.

CHIPMUCKS! =D
I want watch,lol. mood swing.
I ~~hate~~ moodswings.~~hate~~. -.-
confuses me -.-

The Magic Of Sharing, =D

2009-12-24T16:14:00.006+08:00

At Faris house now, =D

He's such a good host, xD

Everyone must go his house, xD

Eh..currently practising guitar, Faris teaching me~
later gona go bowling with my family, =)
hope i win my dad, =P

some awesome guitar videos from youtube, xD

YOU.HAVE.TO.CHECK.THEM.OUT. =D

press those words below~

Do Enjoy!! =D
the magic of sharing, =)
look at how this two play!!! AWESOME. =D

The following two videos must be watched in order, =)

Some Korean guy who plays the guitar awesome like a piano, =D

Avatar~

2009-12-23T20:46:00.000+08:00

Jogged with Hakim, Faris & Hasjmy at Bedok reservoir~
Went sch to look at the Sec1 registration~
Met others.
Kana spam in the hall by many teachers cause i had my AWESOME top on, xD
Its a singlet which says,
BLAH BLAH BLAH I'M POLICE. xD
seriously got me into alot of trouble, -.-

Went for Movie with Faris, Edwin & Hasjmy at E-Hub after that,
while the others went to play basketball~
We watched Avatar !!! =D
seriously nice movie~ EPIC MAN. EPIC.
shitshitshit.argh.
haha moodswing.
Anyway, everyone should check out that movie man. =D
my legs were pulsing during the movie, xD
and i like my right, =D
lol, inside joke~

8 more days till...
a new year.
a new start.
a new heart. i hope.
MY BIRTHDAY! =D

Ignorance is Bliss.

2009-12-22T07:36:00.002+08:00

Your blissed, now get on with your life.
leave me here, i may still be on this path if you ever return.

Sometimes i wished,
i wished...
Life would be as simple as i thought it was..
like years ago.
I remembered I felt life was just a flight of stairs..
you just take your time and walk up one step at a time.

I didn't expect myself to fall down these steps so many times..
I set my hopes too high, when i expect nonetheless. =)
I wonder...

OUH! N Miranda Kerr is OOOoooooo HOT. xD
but...you know who's hotter? xD
Such an easy question, xD
Current mood: i want to screw some ppl up.badly.

Hilarious ._. xD

2009-12-20T10:24:00.000+08:00

I just talked to Waileong on msn~
He told me cause its gona be the new year,
He may have a different thinking and he may delete friends in his facebook~
and that he doesn't want to add too many friends as he scared ppl will stalk him, xD

WTH.
i don't have twitter cause i'm afraid ppl will stalk me too. =D

Carvings~

2009-12-20T09:15:00.003+08:00

Whats carved in sand may be blown away.
Whats carved in rock may erode after a few years.
Whats carved in wood by a stuborn person, will never be erased.

Went with Hakim & Faris to jog at Bedok Reservoir~
at first suppose to start at 7am, in the end everybody late, xD
Watched "Fighter In The Wind" at Hakim's house after that to kill time,
brought my Vcds along, =D
Met Hasjmy at tamp, go eat Seoul Garden~
I pity him, xP
He's gonna get his braces,
so from monday he has to eat porridge, soup,porridge, soup and so on, =P

Met Jiayi and Jiajin later on,
I still get that feeling my friend, a feeling which i never told you.
It's best not to be told.
Left for Tm1 to buy something for a special friend. =)
seperated at tamp KFC~

Thoughts~
I was thinking in a bus,
are Singaporeans considerate?
cause a guy dropped his newspapers in a bus,
and everyone just looked at him, looking concerned,
but none picked them up, they just closed one eye,
expecting others to pick for him,
If you were on the bus, would you have picken up the newspapers for him,
when everyone didn't?
Do Singaporeans have the initiative to help out small little things like this?

I think the video can be viewed now! =D
Awesomely CUTE! xD

Wiping my tears away.

2009-12-17T17:52:00.002+08:00

Were you happy?
I ~~was~~ am very happy. =)

Heys, =)
I'm back from Penang! =D
It was more of eating holiday, xD
My dad kept on looking for places to eat, xD
like after one hour he go somewhere go eat, and we had to follow him, =)
I got the Zouk music! =D
and other stuff, ^^

Not in the mood to blog recently, so yea.
I'm currently still really in love still, ^^
but yea, im trying to numb this feeling. =)

It's raining now..
The rain makes me think of you, do you know that?
flowing down my skin so slowly..
cooling my eyes..
I like walking in the rain..=)

At Jo inng house now with her brother & Ericia, =)
watching "Sky of Love" now...
I bought the vcd at Katong mall, cause it reminds of good memories, =)
and its a touching movie thast i like...
haas...

To that special person~
others can read it too, =)

I belive if you really love a person,
your love for hin/her wont ever die, =)
even if you have as new girlfriend or boyfriend,
there will always be that feeling deep in your heart..
It only matters what you tell yourself...

In life, everyone wants to be the happiest they want to be.
Obviously, people will take the path where they think they will be the happiest...
Sometimes..people make sacrifices...sacrifices..that they think will make their life more meaningfull..or happier later in life..
Well, i'm leaving you & wish you to be so much more happier.
Take care, =')

*Big warm hug and squeeze*
I would do that in real life,
but i have as feeling i'll break down
& i don't want you to see me sad ironically..

Going away till tuesday~

2009-12-12T10:28:00.000+08:00

Gona be away to Penang with my Family, =)
gona just relax there, slow life?
My dad asked me to forget bout about all the worries in Singapore, O.o
anyway, I've got so much to write about,
but not much time left, =P
at the airport already, using the airport internet~

Takecare everybody, =D
Don't get into trouble when i'm away,lol.

I hope that you will remember me the way I remember you , as someone wonderful , someone perfect .

2009-12-08T23:29:00.001+08:00

You gradually get over the pain . it doesn’t go away , not for a long time , but it becomes easier to live with . One morning you wake up and she’s not the first thing on your mind . And then a few months down the line you realize you’ve made it through half the day without thinking of her . Sometimes it takes months , sometimes , years , but eventually you reach a point when you only think about her occassionally . You manage to do this because you don’t see her , you don’t hear about her , you try not to think about her . And then you bump into her walking down the street , or someone unexpected mentions her name and the memories come flooding back .

Feelings..

2009-12-08T22:43:00.007+08:00

Have you ever felt two completely opposite things about a person?
That a person's so close to you, yet so far away?
That you know everything about that person, yet you don't know anything about him/her?
That..you love that person, yet hate him/her at the same time?

I guess everyone must have felt that way before..
well, its quite confusing for me now.
It's eating me inside, out.
It's like...I wanna screw that person, curse, scream, beat that person up.
yet...a part of me..
Still wants to comfort, be there by the person, support the person in everything..
In the end, i'm just getting squashed in the middle.
Everywhere i go, i mumble that persons name..
Anyone new i meet, i just got to tell them who that person is..
Its like a second nature to say that person's name everyday..
sometimes i say it dreamily, sometimes with happiness..
sometimes with dissapointment and anger..

I can't take it no more, cause its wearing me out.
I have no idea where i got the strength to hold on...
maybe it was my stubborness, not my strength.
yea, probably..
Well, for more than two years,
this blog has been a place where i just openly shout my thoughts and feelings...
and its well...
I think it's purpose is going to end. =)
maybe, its going to end..
I feel like closing it down, cause the only reason that i write on my blog is for...
well, for those who've been reading my blog, you should know who that person is, xD
or even those who know me,lol.

For one time, in a very long time,
I feel like giving up...
congrats to that person, cause in that process you screwed me up damn badly. =)
Now whenever i'm near yea, i don't know anything anymore..
I don't go "Hypery", shout, laugh, smile.
I just..stare in the open, and well..memories just flow.
and the moodswings are BAD.
one second i feel like crying, the next i'm humming a happy tune by myself, LOL.

ACTUALLY, i don't know what to do, lol.
your a great person, a fun person to be with..
but in the whole process of trying to be together, many ppl were hurt.
intentionally or unintentionally...

Okay, now I'm going around in one big circle. lol.
well, a picture paints a thousand words,
so I'm gona summarise what i feel in a picture. =)

I've shown you how much i love you by hurting so much of me. =)

Ps : Should i close this blog down?

信

2009-12-06T19:58:00.002+08:00

A loving relationship requires

Trust.

Understanding.

Abit of fantasy.

and sometimes,

Self-sacrifice.

Wecome back to Singapore girl, =)
Hope you had fun. =)
You know what?
I still love you to the MAX. =D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY IVY! =D

2009-12-06T19:48:00.000+08:00

Be honoured that i posted that as my blog title, =D
hahas, =)
Great to know you as a friend! =D
Have not taught me rollerblading properly, xD
hope you get your ipod touch. =)

Well, Yesterday i worked with Liang Ying & Shi Ling at Keppel Club.
=O
Made mistakes, lol.
won't ellaborate, xP

Today I just felt like sleeping, xP
no mood go to my electone class also~
my legs & hands aching, =O
T.T

A cute Video!! =D
of me & the Pokeyman, xD

WORKWORKWORK!

2009-12-05T13:36:00.000+08:00

D=
I'm poofed out man!
my legs, arms, butt is aching -.-
worked with Liang ying at THE FULLERTON HOTEL~
as a waiter~
on thursday..

There were so many sushi infront of me,
yet i couldn't eat them, cause may not be halal~ T.T
make me feel like buying sushi! D=
was serving beer, white wine, red wine & sake~
to some Japanese and American ppl...

Gona work at Keppel later..also as a waiter with Liang Ying..
well, at least now i'm earning money! =D

Thursday - work at Fullerton Hotel
+
Friday - Karate with Jiayi & Hakim
=
Me sleeping anytime when i'm free. =D

Now i know why Liang Ying sleeps till 1pm +
-.-

Movies?

2009-12-02T23:05:00.001+08:00

Went for 2012 with Farhan, Hakim, Ardy & Liang ying! =D

2012 was quite alright. =)
The special effects were cool!
but the story is kinda blend, alitle sian lar~
After the movie went sightseeing through the shops,
then went KFC to eat'
Liang Ying treated us Cheese Fries~ =D
THANK YOU Liang Ying! =)

Ouh, and im getting alittle sian keeping on asking someone out for movies, xD
Don't feel like treating Japanese food liao lur, lol.
spoil my mood sia, =O

A Video which i feel...something for. lol.
but I, Ismail Bin Osman, will never change! =D

Craig David & Sting- Rise & Fall

Yesterday's News

2009-12-02T22:57:00.000+08:00

I probably used my whole day in school, xD
Hung out with Cass and the bookshop auntie, =D
helped out at the bookshop, i really had nothing to do.LOL.
but it was kinda fun, =)
contended with helping Cass with her PSP. =D
by noon, you could have seen a boy sleeping at one side in the bookshop, LOL.
me~
Haven't been sleeping well lately, =/
my dreams are overflooding & i keep on waking in the middle of the night. =O
so i made a Piano cover! =D

Insomnia Piano Cover

2009-12-02T22:50:00.000+08:00

Hope you enjoy my cover! =D
if you got the time, go youtube rate, xP
=)

East Coast Park Outing~

2009-11-30T21:55:00.000+08:00

Went with Bryan, Keepoh & Jiayi to ECP! =D
Had lots of fun.
Cycled, Swam, Ate, Arcade-d, Style-d, Magic-d, Sightsee-d.
& CRAPPED. xD
Just found out Keepoh is a serious wtf crapper. xD
Pictures would be found in Facebook. =)

I need a job. =O
Not a blowing one, a real job, xD
& have been preparing piano covers during my free time. =)

Dreams.

2009-11-30T21:50:00.000+08:00

I remember my dreams.

First one,
I was just hugging (H)er...
just against a wall, my back leaning against it.
(H)er just infront.
& then.....
my msg ringtone rang -.-
Jo Inng had to wake me up at 12am -.-
Ruined the whole dream. =(
=P

Second one,
It was in school.
on the second floor, beside the basketball court.
(H)er & another guy i knew was holding hands walking towards me..
won't mention guy's name.lol.
(H)er hands brushed against mine as they walk past.
I tried to grab hold of it, but it just slipped out of my hands..
a hot girl suddenly bumbed infront of me, hugged me.
I stoned for a few seconds.
pushed the girl away, turned around to chase after them.
but. they were gone, out of my sights.
That was when i woke up, jerking out of my bed shouting aloud.
lol.
What if i believed in myself, and not stoned in the girl's arms.
and straight away catch up with those two.
could i have catched up with (H)er?
What if i don't give up at all, remain as my stubborn self...
would she lie in my arms again? safe with me?
She's the only one that can make me feel that special feeling..
whatever small thing she does that concerns me.
a spark of escasy, Happiness just flows right through me. =D
Searching for anyone who can make feel that way again. =(
blablabla.

emo post,lol.

Hari Raya Haji!

2009-11-27T20:31:00.000+08:00

Stayed at home the whole day. =)
My cousins came to visit' =P

Even if you're on the right track,

you'll get run over if you just sit there~

Special Someone (H)

2009-11-27T20:26:00.000+08:00

There's always a special someone that can carve a smile on your face.
a person who can make your day, just like that. =)
a person who can make you feel everything,
a person who can turn your life around,
change everything you believed in.
soothe your soul.

& also just throw everything you thought was important.
you probably didn't see me smiling there seeing you off,
do come home safe. =)

=)

2009-11-25T15:31:00.001+08:00

At Jo inng's house now. =D
hahas, ^^
watching movies~
too bored at home lar. =O
Watch Tv.Play psp with my bros.Try out some tunes on the piano.strum the guitar~
BORING. =O

cause some toot cant make up her mind, =P
well, its not her fault. =P

Finding WORK! D=
i need $moneeee$ ~~desperately~~! =O

Yesterday went tennis with Edwin , Ardy & Hasjmy! =D
my wrist is now pain. =P
about 5 hours in the sun ~
I'm TAN! =D

Apologies.

2009-11-25T15:06:00.001+08:00

real sorry for the post " you ungrateful bitch"
haha. was really angry & well. yea. other stuff. lol.
well, yea. ..sorry.

The wall~

2009-11-23T22:46:00.001+08:00

_l_ = wall

Before pushing wall:
Ismail _l_ ardy

After pushing wall:
Ismail _______

=D

Rain rain go AWAY! =O

2009-11-23T22:23:00.000+08:00

The rain is trying to spoil everything man! D=
it spoils the camp, swimming and tennis! =(

Went swimming today with Edwin&Ardy! =D
lucky nvr rain while we swim lur! =O
swam till noon~
then went back to school go help on the games for the canoeing camp with Chee. =)
I got bullied. -.-
LOL.
standard lar, -.-
had no mood after the games. haha.
~~just one thought of you can bring my whole wall down baby.~~

Bussed back 14 home with Ardy&Edwin again~
Hope it doesn't rain tomorrow! =O

I Miss you

2009-11-23T22:15:00.000+08:00

All i hear is raindrops,
falling on the rooftops.
Oh, baby tell me why'd you have to go,
cuz this feeling im feeling wont go away.

Well, I thought i could get just get over you baby
But i see that's something i just can't do
Frm the way you would hold me,
To the sweet things you told me
I just can't find a way
to let go of you

Can't nobody do it like you
said every little thing you do
hey baby stays on my mind.

Well, i wish that you would call me right now
So that i could get through to you somehow
But i guess its safe to say baby safe to say
That im missing you, till the end of the day.

I thought that from this heartache
I could escape
But i fronyed long enough to know
there aint no way
and today, i'm missing you.

All i do is lay around
with you in my tears. smiling.
=')

Back from Sec3 camp

2009-11-22T21:35:00.001+08:00

Yeeeeaaa~
been asleep for most of the time after reaching home, =D
shiok uh. xD
was the helper for sec3T1~
very tough, but the toughness is what makes it memorable right? =D
the sec3 camp was memorable, =)
but nothing compared to last yr's sec3 camp! =D
The instructors were hilarious and hyper man, xD
especially instructor akasha, xD
super horny,retarded and awesome, xD
He had an equation of AKASHA. xD

Horny = Akasha
Akasha - Horny = Horny

xD
try making sense of it, LOL!
My parents are nagging at me to find a job! =O
but i want to relax till O's result comes out! =P
what to do! =O

BOOMBOOM SHAKESHAKE NOW DROP! =D

O's?

2009-11-16T22:33:00.000+08:00

ARE OFFICIALLY OVER!!!!
for me, xD
today was the last paper for me!! =P
the wrecked CLB listening paper -.-

well...hung out with someone after the CLB paper today, LOL.
xD
Sadly, i don't feel the same.
that same feeling she always give me.
I need it badly.

Today's plan was ruined twice, -.-
stupid rain.
stupid carebear. LOL. =x

Gona post the EPIC picture of all my Physics notes combined! xD

and here it is! =D

Cameraman - 2nd bro,Yusuf

FOOD! =D

2009-11-15T22:26:00.001+08:00

My dad just bought SUSHI! =D
I love sushi! ^^

I love Sushi, Chocalate icecream & Shark's Fin Soup. =D
I want more. =P

Ouh, i put one of my post today in yesterday's date. =P
so it appears below todays post. =P
If you understand,lol.

Never give up on dreams, just catch them as they fly by. =D

2009-11-15T10:23:00.003+08:00

Woke up today, smiling to myself"
You were there right infront of me, the girl that i always knew before,
you know something ironic? you became what i kept on saying.
you became my dreamgirl, the one that's only there with me in my dreams~
you, the only one, you.

Although Love is not always safe, you're the only one that makes it worth the risk.

I'm so tired of turning and running away,

When Love just isnt everything you want, but its everything you need,

Its not always happy endings but its happy in between,

Its taken so long, so long to finally see,

the others ain't worth the risk.

You're not safe,

and thats okay~

Britt Nicole - Safe

Britt Nicole Live songs~

2009-11-15T10:22:00.002+08:00

Britt Nicole - Safe
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EIYyEIRc_cM&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P2jPQa0-3cg&feature=rec-HM-fresh+div

Britt Nicole - The Lost Get Found
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E19B6p-c-38&NR=1

Britt Nicole - You
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V_lFKmA7LPI

Britt Nicole- Set The World On Fire
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v-XcKDbTqVY

Check them out guys! =D

You ungrateful bitch

2009-11-15T10:20:00.000+08:00

You said you aprriciated my feelings and understanding for you.
I said i'd feel any amount of hurt just to be with you.
you said lets break up since your hurting me.
If you appriciated me, why did you have to go?
If you appriciated me, you would have want what i wanted, needed.
not to leave me alone, in the dirt.
You just didn't appriciate me enough.
yet i'm here still.

Saturday 14th~

2009-11-14T10:19:00.000+08:00

I missed the date friday 13th lar, =O
Shall talk about yesterday~ =D

Yesterday was Flag Day! =D
and it was surprisingly FUN! ^^
Made new friends, met new ppl,felt high~
xD
Spent my saturday morning very fruitfully. =)
Made many ppl smile, =D
and i like going to ppl who have kids~ =D
then i would squat and give the kids the sticker, =)
& how some girls would giggle when i approach them asking for donations, xD
I got donations from other girls taking part in flag day, infront of Raymond&Liangying, xD
made friends~ ^^
made friends with ppl from YTSA too! LOL.

The whole morning actually took my mind off her,lol.
Ate at Food junction after giving back the donation box~
Met Novia on the way back home. =D SUPERNOVA! =D
So long have not seen her lar! xD
CheeHean said she went from "Cute" in sec1 to "Alamak" in sec4, xD

Went back home~

Went meet Ardy at his house,
then went to Singapore stadium for the SingaporeVSThailand match~
Met Farhan, Farhan, Faris, Sufi, Hakim. =D
Hakim was wearing a red shirt with thailand words, xD
Stupid lar he, xD
We went to Kallang KFC first~
Something stupid happened.lol.
At the counter instead of telling what i wanted,
I ask the cashier "Would you like to donate?" xD
become habit liao,lol.

After eating at Kallang Kfc, went stadium~
The match was.....
one word.
Dissapointing.
No more comments on the match sia~

At night talked to Aishah on the phone tillnear 3am. =D
Talked about personal problems as usual,lol.
and crapped about too. =)

This post is like a summary ._.
I don't like it. D=
lol.

What did you have to lose? I was all there for you to take.

2009-11-14T07:33:00.000+08:00

Heys, yesterday, felt too sick to blog. =/
now feel much better to go out for the Flag day, =P
I'll be killing my saturday's morning by standing there asking ppl to donate, xD
yesterday night had a chat with my mum & yusuf, my second youngest bro~
lol, was quite hyper, kept on interupting their "dialogue" lol.
xD

well, i just found a great Singer!
She's Britt Nicole! =D
her songs are so heart-felt ^^
downlaoding all her songs from youtube now.
hehey, =P
go check guys! =O
her songs are alitle rmb-ish~
i think.lol.
and she sometimes use the piano for her songs! =D

Well, yesterday felt screwed! =O
at first. lol.
I hate the way you screw up my feelings so easily girl. =)
well, chemistry paper was easier than expected? =P
went for the camp briefing, then went for friday prayers.
Went back to school~
did some gym in school, and hung out with Alwinson, sec2&sec3s~ =D
waited for the rain to end in school~
& i forgot to tell jiayi i didn't want to go for the movie, =O
I felt so screwed then.
stupid screwed feelings, it just tears my mind apart.
I just didn't know what to do.
I hope today will be better. =/
well, didn't go for the movie.
Real sorry to Cass(C)! D=
went to bedok inter with Alwinson, then took 16.

But i did go for bowling with Edwin, Hasjmy, Hakim & Sufi! =D
edwin won me ._.
I'm just not use to kallang alley lar. xP
=x I'm serious.lol.
I think kallang leisure park's bowling alley is one the smoothest around in Singapore. =O
Anyway, my phone was out of batt, so had to go around find them. D=
shag sia.
but i found them! guess where?
the arcade -.-
played Tekken6!!!! =O
so gona buy the game, =D
and also detona,lol.
I unbelievably won all four of them, xD
after played at arcade then went to bowl. =)

Something hilarious happen, xD
while we waiting for the shuttle bus, they were playing with a cat. =O
so i just went infron of the cat let it pass through my legs, xD
it curled around my legs, =D
then Sufi went behind me, xD
He open his leg widewide let the cat pass through. O.o
Then the cat walked in between his legs too~
The funny part is,
the cat went behind a girl after that, and also passed in between her legs! xD
The girl was like shocked and jumping after that, xD
EPIC~
LOL.
too bad we never take video~
The guys went in the shuttle bus, i went home~
Had a fun time. =D

hmm..shall go take bus to inter liao`
won't want to be late. =)

Straight through my heart, she shot me. =)

2009-11-12T18:54:00.001+08:00

I put together all my physics notes and covered my bedroom wall, =D
now it looks EPIC. xD
shall post the picture here nxt time. =)

Two more papers to go!! =D
Chemistry paper one & CLB listening -.-
well, after that i'm gonna do all the stuff that i have planned. =D
WOOTS! can't wait. =)

Do you know? How it kills within.

2009-11-10T21:27:00.007+08:00

Heys, back! =)
shocked that there are ppl who still come here ._.
anyway, Farhan was damn ~~bastard~~ today, D=
see me, suddenly shout GAYBOY -.-
then i tio stun there, don't know what say -.-

Today's physics paper was easy. =)
got one wrong.lol.
when almost going into the hall, i suddenly found that i didn't bring my entry proof! ._.
-!-
i quickly borrowed money from Bryan&Cassandra. =D
It cost a ~~Fucking~~ $4!!!!
zzz...

Anyway, some songs that i put for my blog in random~
If got time go check them out. =D
Mayday Parade - Miserable At Best
Green Day - 21 Guns
One Republic Feat Timberland - Apologise
Backstreet Boys- Straight Through My Heart
The Click Five - Say Goodnight
Numb~ Piano Version

Ouh! and when i went to katong mall to buy a movie i liked "Sky Of Love",
I bumped in to that toot after her run. =D
how coincidental~
shall keep that movie disc with all the memories i have stuffed in my drawer` =)
=/

O's ending?! =D

2009-11-09T08:12:00.001+08:00

Back for a new post! =D
O's is actually ending!!!!! xD
WWWWwwoooo~
so energized by hearing that man,
remember when my friends and i kept on saying O's are nearing. =O
It's finally gona end! ^^
and i feel like they've ended already. =P
though i got all my science paper 1 and CLB exams to take~
maybe its the CLB exam that make me feel next week isnt important, xD
but science paper 1 is obviously important..
more weightage of marks and the time to add marks~

A video that kinda suits me, lol.

One hilarious video my brother showed me, xD
sorry for the low quality of the video, thats the best. =O

Super hilarious,
look at the way that guy having spasm on the right after he on the floor, xD
do press full view~ =D

will post next time. =D

Gunshot of truth pressing at my temple.

2009-11-09T07:42:00.001+08:00

Been sick recently =O
first my second brother, then my youngest, then my grandma, then me ._.
Think i passed the sickness to Bryan when i went to his house. D=
gonna go to school study in the morning,
actually, im in no mood to do anything right now.
Just want to see your face..ha.
been making quite alot of ppl angry from my stupidness&stubborness.
All of them don't support me what i'm doing...
I guess its for my own good..
but hey, I don't know why i love this feeling of hurt,
i just want to have to do something with her.
I have nothing left but memories which play around all day in my head.
in one month plus, i would throw all the bad memories out of my head & leave them behind like others have done.
I believe that if you really love a person, there's no "loved"
if you "loved" the person, well..then you didn't love them at all in the first place.
well, there goes my belief if i so call "let go"
owell.
Is there anything more painfull than hurting inside out?
well, ive never felt something more pain than this alright~
screaming, crying, I'm sick of it.

i'm bored...
guess i'll just pass the time away later by studying. =O
no life sia =(
I want go movies, bowling, learn how to inlineskate'xD
want to learn new martial arts, wanna go learn the drums and pratise more on the guitar. =D
I want to spend my time with her.
lol, her again. =O
seems like everything reminds me of her. =I
but obviously, she wont`
she's there having the time of her life. =)
ppl get sick of me being so "lovedrunk"
im getting alitle sick myself. =O
I wanna do a new post. =(

Scared

2009-11-07T22:04:00.000+08:00

Wanted to start the post with life but guess i cant.
My grandma just now slip and fell...
she kinda vomited continously after that..
had to take care of her..
was so scary thinking that she may get hurt or something..
i'm in no mood to blog.
gonna sleep early and wake up early to study tmr...
tatas.

I hate the way

the way you just tear my strings apart without knowing

the way you can play with my feelings all day long without knowing

the way it just so strung out for you

yet, i love it.

Undersaid

2009-10-25T21:00:00.005+08:00

Oversaid

Always better to say
What we really feel
Than to let it all die
Never to be made real

And miss the very hearts
That need to hear so much
While in silence we cling
Grasping a favored crutch

Then in passion we say
What we believe we know
And the connection made
Was meant so long ago

But words were in the way
Or maybe it was their lack
Erasing what could have been
And leaving us no way back

Your Gaurdian Angel` (H)

2009-10-22T07:18:00.005+08:00

I'll be your gaurdian angel,
Looking from afar, always near you through heart & soul"

Will be back after aprroximately one month due to O's. =)
Will be away to cleanse my soul & give it alitle space too.
I have been living with too little appriciation for others,
I just wanted to have fun, not to make ppl suffer.
Yes, things change.
but it doesn't have to be always bad right?
Too bad, I am not gonna change inside and that stays final! =D

I've broke about a couple of promises during my previous years,

now, let me live a life with fufilled promises.

Never ever breaking any anymore"

Because LIFE's suppose to be full of Promises & Happiness. =D

- I would rather be able to appreciate things i cannot have than to have things i am not able to appreciate~

- Forgiveness is the fragrance that flower leaves on the heel of the one that crushed it~

-Live your Life. =D

Write to be understood, speak to be heard, read to grow.

2009-10-22T07:02:00.000+08:00

1.
Today's will be the Science Pratical for many of the sec4s!
Wish you people all the best in the praticals!!!
& i also wish all the best to the others for the 3grueling weeks of O's!

2.
Went to Bowling on sunday. =D
Bowling & chocalate icecream is essential in my life. xP
I got 100+ again! xD
Now i just need to be consistent. =O
My dad got 130 -.-
his strikes are fast. =O
Shall practice more after O's =)

3.
What type of meat does a chicken by from a market?!
....
....
....
Pawrk,Pawrk,Pawrk~ xD

LAME RIGHT? xD -.-

Awake!

2009-10-18T04:00:00.000+08:00

Im awake at 4am. =D
Muhahaha. =D

Reverse~

2009-10-18T01:38:00.002+08:00

Can't you see what our lives have come to be.

Live life to the fullest.
Wasn't that the phrase i always said?
What has happened?
let me see...
I'm as stubborn as always & i never change.
Everybody is asking me to let go of (H)
what do i do?
I asked her, was it hurting her that i hang on to her?
she said yes.
so what do i do?
I can't stop this feeling, its so uncontrollable...='(
I wish i could stop it. Stop from hurting myself too..
sometimes, my legs just go weak, my heart just melts,
sometimes i scream, shout, cry.
sometimes i just put my head against the walls,
feeling accompanied by its coldness & lonliness.

Edwin said i was obsessed. yea, i am. probably.
Huixuan and Aishah said i was stupid to still hang on.
I myself say that i just want to love her for the rest of my life.
well, she is beautiful, and yea, i'm stupidly blind and stubborn, xD
Now jiayi is trying to persuade me to stop. lol.
Well, she must be so happy that her friends are trying to stop my unconditioned love.
i told myself..that i would try not hurt myself & yet still hold my love for her..
7months! not bad, xD
If we were together, i'll be more ever faithfull man.
but cause of that stupid misunderstanding. lol.
well, now im hurting myself...
but i don't really care. haha.
I feel so saded. =)
-.-

& now i know something else.
lmao off. I didn't think that would ever happen.
First you break my heart, now you wanna burn the pieces?
its enough for me to hold on so much,
but you having those feelings we shared with someone else?
man, thats just bull~~SHIT~~.
I saw myself so unstable when i heard it, lucky didn't hurt anyone...
didn't realise i was gripping the person who told me so hard.lol.

I've done alot...
But i'm still gona hold on to the promise, till the year we part.
It would still be my choice on whether i should hold on.
after that i won't be seeing you so much anymore anyway...
13/3/09. that was the day it all felt different.
Saw from my archieves..
Its been more than 210days already.
and my love for you is strong as ever.
I'm actually surprised on seeing that number' O.O
dedicated to myself to a love.
so mesmerizing, so beautiful.
so painfull.
Girl, what a rollar coaster ride you made me go through~

I'll just post a picture to end off this endless post'

My Engraved Past.

~Promise in my heart~

2009-10-18T00:38:00.000+08:00

Was bored during Chemistry class,

so just played around with stapler bullets. =D
*My heart is Yours. =D
If i wanted to let go? I would have done it longlong time ago. =O

2009-10-15T07:31:00.002+08:00

Changed my blog song. =)
Random songs. =D

Bei ji xing de yan le - iNicholas Teo *introduced by YiZhen*
Her songs are always so sweet&soothing =D
& sometimes those type of acting cute songs, which she always does, xD

Jump - Flo rida feat Nelly Furtado

Good Day - Click5

Knock You Down - Keri Hilson Ft. Kanye West & Neyo

Justin Bieber - One Time

Was Mugging till late at night as usual listening to the radio,
heard one stupid joke on 98FM~
What type of meat a chicken buys from a market??
Try guesssing it. =D
I'll post my answers on my nxt post! =D
Shall go to Tamp go study before meeting Jiayi & Shau jing. =)

Sometimes love comes around and it knocks you down

Just get back up

When it knocks you down

Sometimes love comes around and it knocks you down

Just get back up

When it knocks you down~

Letting the threads of friendship to slowly weave my heart back~

2009-10-13T23:08:00.004+08:00

but no matter what, they'll be one part missing, the part where i gave it all for you"

My current Blogsong was playing in my head during lesson time today. =D
Click5 - Good day. =D
kept on humming to the tune. x)
& i had to get all those words out from the last post out of my head before i forget them, xP
so yea...
Just realised that there is a PURE CHEMISTRY test tomorrow! =D
how fortunate -.-
so lazy study liao siol, =(

My hearts beating.beating.beating. for only you.
maybe i ain't worth to be even loving you.. ='l
U may never know how much you matter to me'

Maybe~

2009-10-13T22:58:00.002+08:00

I stare foolishy as she walks at the opposite side of the road..
I like it. Just looking at her seems to make my heart race&rest at the same time.I don't know what to make of it when she just looks in my direction,
she gives me a look which i've seen b4..
a sign of concern, pity, love?
Or maybe she's just staring into the air?..
or it might as well be my brain thinking that it may work out if we start over..
I feel the same way when i'm near with her friends, I start feeling jumpy, small, tongue-tied.
Maybe its due to the broken pride i have or maybe im just scared of her,
of how easy it is to make me do anything she wants..
or because of the distaste i have for her to be so ignorant of how my heart, body & soul yearns for her..
Its a nauseous feeling which i have everytime and surprisingly i'm so addicted & strung out by it~
Thoughts of her just flood my mind once somethings spark a memory of her in my head.
It's very common if i grow distracted&faraway when it's windy&cold..
it just sets off the flood ofthoughts that lay in that stubborn head of mine"
& also Its very relaxing. =D
Her voice, laugh just makes me escatic, her singing just flow through my veinsof my heart.
I'm obviously Deaf&Blind. xD

-!- Anyway, have been studying till 4am for the weekend, =O
were many kind&helpful ppl to talk on the phone with to keep me awake ^^

Skyway Avenue.

2009-10-10T00:00:00.001+08:00

It all got so mundane~

Was studying with Calvin at my house again. =)
I think i should be doing revision instead of using the computer, xP
anyway...less than 20 days left.
~~damn~~. Thats scary...
Tomorrow shall revise on social studies. =D
purely on Social studies after the saturday english program. =O

Will try my best to concentrate, =P
& my blog song insomnia? I just like the song,
but im sleeping well this few days since most of the time i'm damn tired from studying when i come home. =O

Came across a stupid video, xD

Warmth of the heart,

2009-10-09T23:55:00.001+08:00

Slowly eaten away by actions`

Something happened today`
(H) gave something to me...
It's golden shiny.
It smells nice, though i have not tasted it yet,
cause i just kept it. xD
sometimes i can laugh at my own foolishness' -!-
I was actually caught off-gaurd at (H) just approaching me'
guess i have not felt a fraction of what i used to felt in a long time..
& just being near (H) is...undescribable.
I know its probably just a mere gift,
and it doesn't mean a thing.
but...
I'm just so weak & vulnerable man. -!-
Talked to HuiXuan on the phone too,
& she gave me insults that i never even heard of -.-
how foolish i am to hold on.

Too BAD. thats the way i want it to be.
Kill my spirit, kill my soul, my heart will still be pumping for her'
well, thats what i say now. xD
Don't know whether i will say the same thing 1year later, =P
or whether i may even feel the same.

Isn't it boring sometimes when ppl go to my blog & most of the contents are lovesick?
O.o
I wonder.
& she probably doesn't go to my blog..
so why do i
wait. -.-
cause she's mostly in my mind all the time -.-
stupid question. =O

Never let go.

2009-10-06T23:55:00.000+08:00

If i'm not wrong the previous song on my blog "Usah Lepaskan" by Taufiq Batisah~
means Don't let go. =P
IF. I'm not wrong, xP

4days since i touched the computer! =D
Have been studying alot so too tired to blog. =O
I wonder how will i fare for my O's =/
I.know.i'm.not.really.prepared.for.it. =(
BUT. i will try my very best...

My neck has some rashes. D=
due to some wash i used ._.
It looks like i used a hot metal bar and burnt myself ._.
& it itches so much =(
have been trying not to touch it..=O

ANYWAY~
Today more than 1/4 of my class didn't turn up for class' O_O
cool eh? xD
I should have pon today lessons -.-
waste of time, but tomorrow lessons should be slightly more productive. =P
and there's a mock exam so might as well attend school`
Thoses who didn't come for school was all around Singapore in groups studying~
Ardy + Bryan
Sharon + Jia Yi
Deska + Xi Chun + PeiShan
Farhan
Hasjmy
& others.lol.

Thoughts of her slipping from my mind...
Maybe its just that i haven't been staring at her as much?
cause of the recent cancelled assemblys?
& that i have been concentrating on my work? O.o
But i miss the way she makes me feel..=I
The feeling that only she can make me feel..
this strong, unextinguishable feeling..
I like her the smell of her hair..lol.
just a random thought, xD
It somehow makes me so relaxed, so calm..
so secure & happy. =D

And it's so confusing sometimes...
It's like i want to sit with them & join in their laughter..
but i'm just scared to feel you near me...
Its like one protective barrier around her.
& my heart just opens up when im around her...
i don't feel secure at all. =/
cause i have a feeling that my love is insignificant when im there near her..
I don't know what i feel..=(
It's all jumbled up & i kind of like & dislike the feeling. =S
Like : cause she's the one that makes me feel that way
Dislike : I don't like how it just builds inside of me untill i go away from her. =/

maybe its love O.o
lol.
Actually, i don't rally know what im talking about anymore. xD
just that im talking about (H). =D

less than 20 days left to O's!

Random pictures~

2009-10-06T23:45:00.000+08:00

The First Neoprint I took with my sec2 mates. =D

I don't think anyone has these neoprints anymore, xD

see the cute girl in the picture? xD

Jiayi's Number1 Idol, xD

on his Destop wallpaper!!

One of those nights`

2009-10-03T00:02:00.002+08:00

I'm going crazy and I've been awake for days
My mirrors are stained with pain and portraits of your face

My flatlined inhibition is my ammunition
I'm just fighting to get by
Just give me some direction
I'll be your affection
How could you leave me behind?

I'm a mess and
Your words just give me time
To give you a waste of time
One of those nights.

Have you ever felt everytime you saw someone,
you swallow your pride, take your losses,
& just move on?
Everytime i see her, I can't take my eyes off her,
It's as if, im scared she'll go away from my sight.
Im so foolishly looking at her smile, laugh.
she probably can see me just gazing at her all day long'
As some people say, I'm stupid & waiting for her is not worth it at all.
so what, i'm foolish, stupid, I still..
somehow i don't want to continue talking bout her, =/
haha.
It's as if she went away, i lost my spirit & heart all together`
I almost drowned myself in despair, but for her, i didn't.

I think i'm blind -.-
lol. I like laughing at my problems as if its one funny sick joke.
laugh bitterly, laugh sadly,
if not im waking my fingers on the piano or wacking the punching bag.
sadly my punching bag has not been up for months/weeks. =(
Went to jiayi house yesterday?
& ~~damn~~, it was good feeling the andreline rush again. =D

There's still school tomorrow & O' levels are just 20+ days away..
wonder how these days will be filled with`
It's 12am already, i'd better go to sleep~

Goodnights! =D

Two videos to laugh at. =D

2009-10-01T17:54:00.000+08:00

Mez-mer-rize-d- - -

2009-10-01T16:51:00.000+08:00

What am i really thinking?
I don't know...I just feel so much when i just set my eyes.
I like this feeling.I love this feling. I hate this feeling.
I'm not actually sure. lol.

Fluncked today's physics test today,
just can't seem to grasp what the question is asking me. =/
Physics used to be so easy, why can't i ace it now! =(

If you can find a reason to be sad, you can find a reason to be happy~

2009-09-30T19:27:00.000+08:00

a quote.
just a quote.
which means alot to me. =)

Have not been blogging lately? O.o
1day? 2days?
I don't care. =)
These days have been quite busy at night~
studying at Calvin's house or Ardy's house. =)
Have not been going to Jo inng's house lately, xP

scared of her moodswings liao, xD (joking)

Anyway, today's haze was veryvery bad ._.

the sky was like all covered with smoke,

and can smell something burning in the air for the whole day~ D=
Can't last a day without my favourite chocalate icecream now, xD
everytime, go home, go katong mall, feel like buying, =x
& my Hari Raya money is quickly depleting cause of my money spending habits. =O
shall try. TRY, to control. =D

Changed Blogsong. =)

sounds nice? =P

Random pictures for your viewing~ *yawns*

My Favourite Chocalate Icecream! =D

St. Patrick's notice board` xD

*It's an all-boys school~

Just feeling alitle more empty"

2009-09-27T22:46:00.001+08:00

Well, the post title says it all.
haha.
I feel alitle ~~fucked~~ up that putting all my worries in my blog,
doesnt change anything for you.
it doesn't have any ~~fucking~~ effect on you.
It's as if i don't exist.
maybe to you, me, ismail.have already died somewhere in your dreams`
yea, go and ask edwin go pray to me.
I'm not dead yet.
You know my hopes are always just being hacked off slowly.
& i just try to stand up again.believing.
feeling its like some stupid hacking-of-my-heart-service. lol.
but hey, who cares, its for you.
maybe im just hurting myself. but hey, its for YOU.
~~damn~~, I think too much & put too much of my thoughts on my blog -.-
I think i should stop doing that.

Its seems like all my thought are all about you.
& i feel ~~fucking~~ hopeless. yes.
I don't want to feel like that anymore.
I still can remember feeling the bliss when we just looked into each other eyes`

Whatever! =D
back to my life! =)
Went to Calvin's house to revise~
I somehow can concentrate there, no distractions. =D
& he can help me in many questions. =P
studied.6freaking long hours~
Went to music lessons after that.
The song i learnt today make me feel so energetic. xD
the song name " Thriller"~
Had chinese tuition after that for straight 3hours.
Tomorrow's my CLB oral! =D
sure DISTINCTION lar, xD
shall end the post here. =)

In the middle of September we'd still play out in the rain

Nothing to lose but everything to gain

Reflecting now on how things could've been

It was worth it in the end. =)

My Heroine~

2009-09-26T00:00:00.000+08:00

This song reminds me of how trust was lost,
how it all suddenly crumbled down,
of how i learnt how to treasure trust in a hard way.
It makes the smell of your hair linger in the air~
To you beautiful'

Finally took a Vid of me playing the guitar. xD
Had to retake some times cause of mistakes,
then my brother got tired of video-taking for me, D=
well, theres still mistakes in the cover due to my sucky skills. =P
& sorry for the volume!!
Its super soft so you need to increase the volume. D=

Enjoy! =D

The Ugly Truth~

2009-09-25T23:30:00.001+08:00

Long & thoughtful post~

Well, had alot of thoughts after watching this NC16 movie~
first NC16 movie, although i'm not yet 16.lol.
Stirred many memories & thoughts while watching it`
...
Thought that last yr when jy liked sj.
well, he deserved her more than me'
He was there for her, spent more time with her,
made her smile&laugh when she was down,
supported her in what she wanted.
Well, now that she's his bestfriend & i'm here on my own.
maybe it was meant to be?
well, he really deserved the friendship he has with her now. =)
spending time with her at her house, crapping, taking pictures,
sharing memories.
He really deserve all of this. haas,
although he says no, when i told him this,
I bet that he said yes in his heart. xD
...
I also thought about myself..
When i like a person, i tend to think about her everytime,
anything i do, everything i do,
I still do.
she's what i think of the first i wake up & the last when i sleep`
& i want to feel needed by her. lol.
as funny as it sounds yea. i do feel that way~
so I tend be quite possesive. =O
and when i feel that other ppl need me more,
i spend time with that person.
& thats where the misunderstandings happened.
* laughs sadly*
I also hate to feel insecure, thats why i want to feel needed by here.lol.
Now, i'm so scared to be near her.
I feel that she's someone who can easily make me fall,
make me do anything she likes.
I like her personality,
how friendly she is, how she does everything.
how beautiful she may seem to me...
how hot & pretty she may look like even though i know she's not that chio~
I just love her. I don't know why..
Its an unstopable feeling of mine. =O
so in the end i kinda of like ignore her...& my old buddies..=/
since she's most of the time with them.
but i yearn for her love & i hate the hurt that i feel.
I can't really forgive her, nor can i forgive myself for making it turn out this way.
but what can i do now?
I'll just be mutual friends with her,
just keep that feeling of mine plugged in brick walls,
& just hope, just hope that one day she'll be mine again. =)

When you really love a person,
you'll think that you've not done enough for that person,
you'll feel like you want to spend all your life and memories with her.
You'll want her to be as happy as she can be~

Random Pictures & Memories~

2009-09-25T22:58:00.000+08:00

Just some random pictures & memories~

The Emoticons near 4E1 window, where Jiayi & Hasjmy sits!

More coming your way! =D

OBS : One for All and All For One! =D

You may not see what i see. =)

lol. =/

I think this was near chee birthday? ._.

or maybe we were just doing it out of fun. xD

Some 4E1 guys bowling outing~

All the boys & girls.

2009-09-25T22:39:00.000+08:00

Something my friend, Marissa posted on Facebook. =)

“Guys drink to forget about girls. Girls drink to think back about the guy.
When guys are in love, they become poor. When girls are in love they become pretty.
Guys can forget, but can’t forgive. Girls can forgive but can’t forget.
Guys break up when they feel love from another girl. Girls break up when they feel the separation from their man.
Guys feel curiosity towards all girls. Girls feel curiosity towards guys who are interested in them.
When guys are heartbroken they try to forget about the girl by going out with another girl. When girls are heartbroken they try to find his characteristics in another guy.
But finally, guys wish to be her first love, girls wish to be his last.”

Well, Its kinda true~

Happy Sweet 16th! xD

2009-09-25T22:37:00.000+08:00

To Sharon Wan! =D
I know this is super belated but yea, =x xD

Its been almost one year been knowing you? =)
& its been nice having you as a friend!
To talk through the tough nights i have sleeping,
& other stuff.lol.
just share words, phrases, sentences, seconds, minutes, hours!
hahas~
Didn't even know who you were when i was sec3. xD
gone through "surgery" huh? as Edwin says.lol.
nah, you've been like this from the start,
but just didn't show it. xD
i don't count that as surgery. =P

I never told you this before,
but you can make many boy's head turn! xD
that time went out with you, could see alot of boys eyeing you, xD
I'm sure you'll have a boyfriend like Davis next time. =D

Went to an NC16 movie "The Ugly Truth" for her birthday!
together with Hakim, Jiayi, Edwin & Hanming. =D
Shall talk about it in nxt post. =)

Shall post a video for you to waste your time on & laugh. =D
Baby Dances To Beyonce's Single Ladies - Put A Ring On It
Don't miss the baby at 33+ seconds! xD

200 Amath questions.

2009-09-24T00:02:00.002+08:00

Waoh.
Just did the 200 amath questions on Ace-learning..
had to do in order to take back my phone, xD
My phone doesn't mean that much to me as i don't really msg (H) that much anymore'
or even call..
so yea, i don't really mind it being confiscated for a day. lol.

Here for a short post only. =)
tired & lazy to blog~
A very detailed&thoughtful post will be coming nxt time. =)
Went to my very first NC16 movie! =D xD
"The Ugly Truth"
& it wasn't disappointing at all! xD
I'm not yet 16! xD
MUHAHAHA.
i'm so young. =D
-.-
shall talk about it nxt post.
so much to write & yet so little time. =O
12am liao, need off com. =)
Nights!

You caught my heart & eyes

and I'll never take my eyes off you, beautiful~
My heart will always be yours`

Selamat Hari Raya! =D

2009-09-20T23:11:00.002+08:00

All the best in Life & for any upcoming exams! =)
& hope you forgive me for any wrongdoings i have made. =O

Went to a kampong masjhid to pray in the morning~
After the prayers,
there was an oldman going around giving money around to children randomly in the mosque!
Everyone in the mosque was looking at him.lol.
The three of us, my brothers&I got the money from him.lol.
When i'm old, I would like to do what the uncle did. =D

Donated the money to a cute little girl outside the masjhid' xD
She was like "wee~ Terimah Kasih(Thank you)!! " =D
& was giggling and jumping~
Cute right? =D

Started visiting after that, =D
Its like 10buffets in a row, where you get paid for attending them, xD
Could hardly stand up after all the visiting, xD
All my weight like in my stomach. =P
Watched Tv in one of my relative's houses. =)
The channel was "Sensasi", malay channel~
Had a thought, why singapore so little malay girls like that in the tv, xD
also watched a movie in black&white. =)
showed ppl in the malay kampongs in the past~
why can't life be as slow paced as then?
It would be so relaxing. =D unlike now. =(

Should be visiting till 3pm tmr~
after that will be free for studying. =)

Everytime, i feel the same hurt when i talk to you`

its like i want to scream&shout at why "You&me" arent "we"

but at the same time, i want you to just talk to me.

I can just see your words in messages everyday&never get bored of it'

I feel so happy just by listening to you,

even if you're just waving your hands to go to the table there.

I still need& yearn for your love.

I wonder how something so strong can fade away.

maybe it wasn't for you.

well, you got all your good bestfriends to distract you about it.

ha, hope you have a good time without me.

as you said. you don't even think about it.

do you know how does that hurt?

alot.

There is no such word as "loved".

Love has no past tense.

If you ever stop loving someone,

then you never truly "love" them in the first place.

Somebody call 911!

2009-09-19T07:32:00.000+08:00

Shawty fire burning in my stomach.
Whoa~

Throughout the whole lessons in sch?
I KNOW Amath lesson is the most fun with Mr Tan. =D
His lessons are always filled with joy, laughter & crazyness. xD
AHAHAHA. his reactions are soo funny~

After Bio lessons~
Practiced my sucky skills on someone's guitar. =P
forgot his name =x
I'm gona perfect playing "My Heroine" no matter what! =D
Hung out with Aishah at her flat after doing some work. =)
Did some of my unlimited amount of homework~

Break fast~
Decided to go simpang bedok to break fast yesterday~
but Hasjmy&Ardy had tuition, so they were kinda late. =O
Broke fast at mac. =D
Many BGSS students were there~
just did some Bio questions while waited for others to reach bedok intr.

Met Jiayi, Hasjmy & Ardy at "9"
went to simpang bedok from there~
Edwin was already at the Irna's Brother-in-law Cafe`
LIAR! xD
met Irna, Syafiq & others there. O.o

Went eat at the Ayam Penyet stall.
I was crying as i ate my chilli. x'D
Only Ardy noticed. =P
& MY STOMACH! D=
my poor stomach is still burning from yesterday! T.T
is like..got fire inside.
but cannot even shit out -.-

will be going to the english program later~
hope my stomach don't burst while in sch -.-

Karate tornament 2007

2009-09-19T06:56:00.006+08:00

My dad just found some pictures & videos of my Karate tornament during my secondary 2 years! =D
I got first in the Sparring category. lol.
bully. =x
i feel bad watching the vids. xO
=P

Japanese boy on my Right~

His kicks could reach my head ._.
My little brother on my left in another category~
He had an astma attack during one fight, O.o
but he got the most spirited fighter award. =D

I sadly bullied this yellow belt =x
one year younger than me, but same category. =P
my fighting stlye still suck then. =D
My dad was kinda distracted when he was taking the video.
lol.

The Finals for the Competition. =P
I secondary2 only train my Low kick. xD
-.- quite sucky actually~
the guy you hear in the background is my dad~ =O

0:51 kana kick at the head~
Needed to shake it off, got alitle dizzy~

0:53 low kick to his legs~
Increase the volume & hear the sweet sound of victory. =D
=x
Im so evil. =O

wait till my Senior Black Belt grading come...
scary...
my friend's senior black belt grading,
at the last part, his chest was bleeding & he was shouting in pain,
but the referee pull him up to his feet everytime he fell.
D=
can't wait for that day -.-

Breaking of Ice by Shihan Jackie Chong~
Looks easy?
You don't know half of it. =P
The last time i took part in breaking was...sec1? O.o
4 real roof tiles..wonder how many i can break now?

Shall go back to Karate after O's =D
I'm kinda scared, i may get owned after not going for many months already. =O

Sweetness in my tongue fading.

2009-09-16T23:58:00.002+08:00

Don't tell me they were meant to be memories
If they were& it was fated, you could have thrown me away earlier.

Today was a crappy day as ever. xD
Damn funny!!
Esp Geog lesson -.-
The guys were disturbing Mr Tan.C.C as usual
& he like no hope fight back, xDD
Pity him alot, =D
They go corner him with two tables when he siting at the visualiser there during the class. xD
you must be there to really understand me. =)
I have "insufficient&limited" vocab. =O

Physics test was screwed up.
I just crapped my whole way through, didn't do many questions.

Lunch.
Went meet Ms.Emmie with Faris~
Got distracted on the way there, xD
& Faris said i looked lost...
I didn't feel anything.
wait. I did feel empty.
Went to pray upstairs with Farhan (4E5) at 5th lvl.
Somehow, it just calms me & clears my mind after praying. =)

During English afternoon program,
went to hall go hear teachers nag -.-
I was right! Mdm Tay did talked for more than 5minutes -.-

Mdm Tay - 15min
Mrs Baskaran - 25min
Mrs Tan - 10min
Ms Emmie - 8min

Was bored, so i took how long they nag. =D
Our class is considered lucky having Ms.Emmie as our English teacher. xD
& most of the errors for the situational writing?
the one Mrs Baskaran pointed out?
most of them were mine. xD
-.-
but not the " You can see how the birds look like" -.-
THAT was not mine. xP
the " you can probably afford it as most of you come from rich families" was mine.
xP -.-
Hey, the school can be those richrich school what -.-
& i did the situational writting using 15 minutes lar! xP
so yea, copy&paste. =)

Ms. Emmie gave us our english results only after the talk -.-
&..i failed????
49%
first time i actually failed english...
Got 18 for my compo..
that basket Ardy got 20+
Dont know why compre so kanasai.
=/ shall check the paper tmr..

Bus14 back home.
& watched "Tom&Jerry" with my bro
have to de-stress sometimes lar. =D
Attempted to do a compo from 8pm.
Attempted. xD
Well, the intro sounds nice. xP
lazy to continue liao. =D

Nights! =)
I must chiong for O's!

Memories.Dreams.Hallucinations.Reality.Hopes.Disappointments.Happiness.

2009-09-15T23:25:00.004+08:00

All of them are mixing up & the confusion is gona break me apart.

The memories just replay all day, all night.

sometimes they turn into dreams, others into hopes that i did not disapoint.

Others into hallucinations, all the stuff which i did, just imagining you were there all along.

Always there.Sometimes its better not to wake up, wishing what i dreamt was real.

feeling like theres no place for me in your life.

feel like im nothing.

I see what happens when i trust my heart to you.

but i don't care.

I love it. this painful feeling i get for holding on.

sucking my spirit away, it would all stop, only its your choice.
just say the words that we used to say.
take your sweet sweet time,

I need my (H) back.

Wait! i should really study. =D
tmr physics test -.-
& math common test -.-

& the weather forecast is stupid,
they say got rain for three days in a row, & not even a drip -.-

Prelims~

2009-09-15T22:53:00.003+08:00

Achieved Prelim Exam Results~

Aww man, it sucks. D=

Will be taking our english results back by tmr..

hope i get a B3 or something if possible. =P

R5 - 14 ._.

Die liao. D=

Thought combined humanities could back me up. =(

Geography got 78% =D

but my Social studies pulled me down alot. =/

My targeted results~ xD *words on right credit to Irna! =D

Super Far away lar both of them! =(

But i will try my best to achieve what i can. =)

Olevels are a blink of an eye away...

so, don't close your eyes & slack!

Must study hard & do our best. =D

BGSS musicaly talented teacher! =D

2009-09-15T22:30:00.000+08:00

He plays the piano, guitar & the violin!

Presenting to you,
Mr. David Lim!!
A NCC teacher, Physics teacher & a father of one child. xD
He was playing the piano during one of the physics remedials~
sometime ago lur.
so just upload for fun. =)
Enjoy~ =D
I feel that the 3rd is the best. =)

Quick Post. =)

2009-09-14T06:17:00.000+08:00

Firstly,
Happy 16th Birthday to Calvin Tay! =D
You have helped me so much in my Amath & it awesomely improved so much. =D
So grateful that i have a friend who can be my math tutor. xP
Must be hard&frustrating having me as your "student"
with my super-short attention span and my tendency to sleep. =)
You might be sort of a bully-magnet,
but once ppl get to know you& don't listen to other ppl,
they'll know that your one of the most friendly&forgiving person. =)
Thanks so much. =D
&Happy Birthday! =)

Next but not least,
Happy 16th Birthday to....Turtle! =D
aka. Faris Asnin! =)
Know him for almost a year liao~
He's kinda Blur, Fun, nice to bully (oops) & friendly person.
A mixture between "see-dick" & "COW"
"COW" is liangying. xD
HAHAHA. xD
& He's super guai lar. =)
Don't get influenced when you go to other schools hor after O's! =)
Forever a turtle, always a turtle. xD
*adapted from Hakim Pubo"
&Happy Birthday! =)

Man. My birthday would be nxt yr -.-

oh well. =O

what to do~

Zakum vs Airport with newly built control towers.

2009-09-11T22:49:00.005+08:00

Airport wins! =D

Have not been sleeping well lately =/
I wake up alot during my dreams. haha.
cheating my feelings. D=
sleep very litle but still no eyebag. =P
However,slept very soundly yesterday night. =)

Studied at home. =D
Then went to Irnawaty's blabla's brother-in-law cafe go breakfast. =D
With Hasjmy, Edwin & Jiayi~
Irna was there too! =D
I go there only kana bullied sia -.-
the whole journey -.-
Irna's nephew is so CUTE. =D
& one of her relative. "ehem" xD
had a great time laughing today! =)

ahaha,

the kiap machine so cute. xD

Chunk Fest.

2009-09-11T22:28:00.000+08:00

Holly ~~shit~~.
I just missed something awesome! D=
CHUNK FEST 2009! =D
can't it be like after fasting month? -.-
zzz...there's a freaking icecream eating competition. D=
and all of the icecream there. Ben&Jerry's ... T.T
Held at marina Barrage. =/
more info at http://www.gadget3.com/node/674

~Promise in my heart~

2009-09-11T18:00:00.000+08:00

A picture paints a thousand words~

2009-09-10T22:00:00.002+08:00

9/9/09~

This was the best that me & my "mum" Aishah could do, xD

but its still alright to me. =D
.

Syeddah, Aishah, Razy, Me~

*credits to Syeedah*

I'm getting closer to my Ideal score, 150. =)
.

Alif's powerful score~ xD

Fyi. He's Nocturn Animal.

Think he was sleeping when he playing, xD
.

Notice poop - Alif

Anyhowpoop - Aaron

Cat poop- who else can it be? =D

Fyi. 1st game with them~
.

2nd game~

Me & Alif shag liao after Ji hao came. xD

It was Cat balls, Anyballs, Noballs & Chickenballs at the start of the game.

but halfway through game, me & Alif changed name.

We shag lar, score so low untill i din't want to take the score -.-

so yea, only took the name =P

Alif told me scored super well in the 3rd game!

Congratz to you! =)

I went home b4 third game, had to breakfast at home. =P

Almost went out with the bowling shoes, xD

Lucky Alif reminded me.

& i accidentally took his PSP,

will pass him back as soon as possible. =)

Broken strings. can't be played on.

2009-09-10T21:00:00.004+08:00

C#
Sometimes i wonder whether your even talking about me.
most likely not. but whatever.
I know i wasn't there when you needed me the most.
but i felt i wasn't needed in your life,
thats how i felt.
just an extra string to play on.
yet i was so strung out for you.
& i felt you completed my life.
D#
The misunderstandings just drew us slowly apart.
E#
I hope you can finally realise how much you meant to me`
F#
Sometimes my dreams play tricks on me & i makes me feel that your still by my side.
G#
Now, i just want to stay true to my feelings for you.
but the thing is I'm not sure how your gona treat me.
or how its gona be like.
I feel so plugged up when im with you'
A#
I'll just let fate take its course.
B#
hope the uneasiness will cease.

9/9/09~ 2nd page

2009-09-10T00:00:00.002+08:00

Blogger "can't " seem to upload pictures now. =)
Shall upload them later. =D

Went to school to study for awhile~
3E1 was in school, apparently for a class test.
Forgot call Hasjmy go hunt "Zakum Helmet" lar. xD
=x
He went library study, never call me siol~
lol.

Anyway, chated with Aishah b4 her remedial started. =)
Was distracted by the piano too. xP
Kept on going to the piano play alitle instead of doing my work. =P
Bused to Safra Tamp wit Syeddah & Aishah! =D
Have been going there alot to play bowling, xD
when i'm suppose to study ._. =O
Waited for Razy there~
was grinning idiotically lar,
cause "ehem" was "ehem" very "close" friend last time. xD
If you get what i mean~

Played with them one game only. =)
My score was 111! =P
getting closer to ideal score 150. xP
had a few 9/ ~ O.o
lucky date to bowl. =)
Aishah was damn funny on of the shots, xD
She swing the bowling ball & ....
It flew BACKWARDS. =D
no video to savour the moment unfortunately, =O

Went under some block to study with Aishah at bedok after that. =)
She really needs alot of help with her math ._.
and when i say alot? alot. =x
Went to collect porridge for her dad with her after studying,
Crapped with her at her flat & wasted time after that. =D

Had a great time out today. =D
Friends are the best remedies when your sad. =)
However, I feel better taking a dose of (H),
Its like a drug,
once you start, its like a necessity,
im all addicted for (H)
=D

too bad i'm suffering now, without it.

09/09/09

2009-09-09T06:47:00.005+08:00

cool date huh? =)

short post, no mood blog.
I feel like having a round at the punching bag,
but i can't cause im curently fasting.
shall learn one stupid song on the guitar/ piano to forget bout my feelings.

I ~~still~~ love you,
your eyes still make my knees limp,
your smile still makes my day,
thoughts of you just makes my heart beat wildly,
Thoughts of you still help me through the night,
Rememberance of how your hair smelt like still calms my nerves,
Rememberance of how soft you were close to me still makes me go escatic,
hearing your laughter everytime i wake up & everytime i sleep still helps me get through the day.

I appriciate the memories that you have given me,
even though it hurts everytime just thinking of what we were and how far we've grown,
how low you made me fall after you left me,

sometimes i think to myself that my friends are right,

why chain myself to this unrequited love?
why sacrifise your thoughts for someone who probably doesn't care a shit of you.

why seperate yourself near her, just so you don't feel that feeling again.

why don't just forget about her, tell yourself that there are others which are probably better?

why I want you back.
why i feel so all alone.
why.

Its just a feeling called Love,

can you explain it?

uhuh. no, you can't.

Two thumbs up! =D

2009-09-06T07:48:00.005+08:00

Happened to pass one video on youtube. =)
She's Gabrielle, She's 16.
and lives in the south of england.
Her piano, guitar playing & singing wins hands down anyone in our school.
=)
Heres her youtube channel url if you wanna hear more. =D
http://www.youtube.com/user/Gaberrz

My Heart - Paramore Piano Cover

Secret Velantine - We the Kings Piano Cover
watch out for the electric thingy at 30seconds. =P
i won't be responsible for any heartattacks. =P

Saturday~

2009-09-06T06:38:00.003+08:00

Went to my Amath tuition as usual.
*yawns*
Its already 50days to O'levels?
How come time past so fast when you don't take notice of it. D=
I shall start my intensive study on monday. =)

Chinese tuition as usual in the afternoon~
I have homework to do! =D
I'm suppose to make some sort of a love poem in chinese ._.
shall post it here. xD

一旦下雨，
不能控制想着你，
因年少稚气，
不能领悟彼此，
无法化解困惑，
枯叶落下了,
你还牵着我的心

don't know how continue,
and it doesn't even rhyme at all lar. xD
It sucks. xD
my chinese getting better eh? xP
no. its not. =)

Met Faris&Hasjmy for terawih prayers again. =)
went Mac after that and crapped till 11pm~
reached home near midnight. =)

Friday~

2009-09-06T06:27:00.003+08:00

Felt like i did nothing for that day.
O.o
Killed time in the morning just playing the guitar & stoning till prayers~
In the afternoon, hung out with Aishah under the void decks of Bedok. =)
Ended up bringing stuff home. =D
At night, watched "Flashpoint" with my dad!
Thanks to Tasmin for her Vcd! =D
The movie was awesome!!!!!
It rrrawked to the core.
but that guy fought with mostly grappling =*
still nice to watch though =)
Those who like Fighting movies, you should watch this movie!

slept at 2+

Kickapoo Zero~

2009-09-06T06:21:00.002+08:00

Presenting to you "Kickapoo Zero"! =D

Saw it near the bustop i was waiting.

Never saw one b4,

so yea took a picture~

Credits to Ardy for the effect due to his itchy hand -.-

Funny Video~

2009-09-04T10:30:00.000+08:00

This video is retarded. xD
know it from my brother's blog~
wait for the drum solo! xD

My Heroine~

2009-09-04T09:57:00.003+08:00

So far yet so close.
All the merories, seems like distant dreams.
It hurts as much as it heals me.
You were my strength, now your my only weakness~
Your my Heroine~

Asked my brother to learn the song "My Heroine" by Silverstein. =)
I'm now learning it halfway already~
Took videos of him playing. =)
If you don't want to waste your time watching my brother crap,
watch the second one. xD
Feel free if you want view the first video~
with him shaking his head retardedly -.-
and some stupid crap at the end~

Enjoy~ =D
Pls off my blogsong first. =P

Stupid boy

2009-09-04T09:36:00.005+08:00

Don't know why that came out of my mouth.
but yea. x)

Went to school as usual yesterday! =D
Go study~
well...I did do some work. xD
but most of the time, played the piano in the canteen. =x
and did the jumping rope, pushups & Holahoop~
I can still swirl the holahoop around my knees! xD
Wwwooohhoo~
and my skipping. 150+ in one minute~
sucks right? =P
was trying to do double skips,
but after like three will step on rope. =(

If i didn't go to school, i'd be probably at home sleeping,
or slacking infront of the TV.
so yea, PRODUCTIVE work! =D

Went back "home" with my "mum" xD
accompanied to fetch her little brother then went home. =)
Her family and my family are freaking similar. =D
super COOL! xD
dropped dead on the bed after washing up~
too tired..

Went Terawih prayers with Faris & Hasjmy at Masjhid Ansar~
started at 8.45, end at 9.45~
considered fast siol'
Slacked at Bedok Mac while waiting for my dad to fetch me home. =)
Hasjmy found something eh? xD

Dad picked me up.
went home and sleep. =)

Addicted (H)

2009-09-02T22:37:00.003+08:00

Blogger can't seem to upload pictures. D=

Anyway, Had Physics&Bio paper1 today. =D
Woots! Prelims are over! =D
Now, I have to only get stressed over O's -.-

Went Safra after papers over. xD
Played some air hockey while waiting for others~
I got trashed quickly by Syafiq ._.
and when i say quick. i mean quick.

Played Bowling ! =D
with Bryan, Ardy, Hasjmy, Faris, Farhan & Liangying
Syafiq took pictures~
Kee poh just watch~
Jiayi, Hanming, Jieyi, Jiahui & Jingwen came later~
Alwinson&Edwin in Lan shop~

So long since i touched the bowling ball. =D
Got three strikes in first game. =D
100+
but Farhan win me ._.
Tyco shit -.-
2nd game, wrist pain liao.
my score lousy, still got first. xP
Must train untill my last time score...
5strikes& 150+
that was when i was in sec3 playing with my family~ =D

Two super tyco strikes!
.
One by Ardy and one by Jieyi! xD
Jieyi just drop the ball, it roll slowly...
& she got a freaking strike! ._.
Ardy more best. xD
the pins topple from...
front left~back left~back right~front right.
get strike -.-

Played the soccer in the table after that O.o
forgot what it was called. xP
DAMN.damn. FUN! =D
Hasjmy despo go tilt the whole thing to the otherside,
like 45degrees!
then someone go score his side. xD

Went back school collect Physics paper~
I got 61% for the whole of physics paper..
a B4...
After checking the paper, found out the paper was quite easy.
I just didn't study&revise with all my heart. =)
My heart&mind is kinda distracted nowadays. ha.

Will do better for O's.
I will. =)

W(h)atever you say

W(h)atever you do

You will always (h)ave my (h)eart

Rest in peace'

2009-09-01T13:03:00.003+08:00

Just went to my neighbours house..
There was a funeral there..
my neighbour's grandmother passed away..
First time i ever went to a malay funeral!
Greeted everyone and sat down there, recited prayers..

I saw the whole proceedings of wrapping the dead with the white cloth..
gave me the creeps..
some of their relatives were crying,
some were just stoning &
some had a thoughtful look on their face..

The room smelt of..dead roses when the body was brought out..
something beautiful, yet sad?
the smell was so think and strong..
after they wrapped the body,
i went home.

didn't want to see her put into the casket..
bbrr..
The smell was still strong on me when i went home..
bathed to get that creepy feeling off me ._.

Ironically, as they moved the body away in the van,
The sky got very dark..
and now its raining...

Rest in peace.
Subahanallah.

Teacher's day Celeb.

2009-09-01T06:47:00.007+08:00

Finally over.
zzz...no more stress from WonderBoys. xD
Had one performance for lower sec and one for upper. =)
was kinda dissapointed. xP

Went home after sch to have a quick rest. =)
Then went with Ardy go Century square~
Met HongHng, Hakim, Jiayi, Bryan, LiangYing, SharonW & ShiLing.
Watched "UP"!
wanted to watch this movie for such a long time man! =D
but someone arr~
zzz..
It was nice as i expected. =D
We Owned the whole first row -.-

Walked around&crapped. =P
SharonW took random photos while we crapped at MoS Burger~
wonder why jiayi didn't get hit by the camera. O.o
Bryan went home with SharonW~
damn funny how we persuaded sharon to go home with him. xD
Breakfast at one Doughnut shop!
ate about a dozen of them. =D
Jiayi&Hakim stayed to join our breakfast. =)

Went Tm1 for awhile.
bus67 to haigroad bazaar.
bought stuff there.
saw a sec5 girl, still rmb me! =D
I forgot her name liao. xD

Walked home. =)
First time i'm hme on time. =D
feel so good~
most of the time when i come home, i'll get scolding one.
but this time was different. =)

Putting the pieces of thoughts together in my head

They seem to be in such a disarray~

2009-08-29T23:45:00.005+08:00

Ouh, and if you recognise me on stage during monday?
Take it as I'm Drunk. =)

Blog song Lyrics!! =D
"The Only Way I Know How To Feel"
by Boys like girls.

Before you let me fall,
Kill me so I don't feel it at all
Push my body up against the wall
And pick your poison
Cause everything feels wrong
And I don't know where I belong

Take me for granted
Make me feel used
Leave me in pieces
Misery is company
Cause I know that it's real
I've learned to love the pain
Cause that's the only way that I know how to feel

Maybe it's a phase
Maybe I'll break out of it someday
Maybe this is just my twisted fate
I always feel like everything is wrong
And I don't know where I belong

Take me for granted
Make me feel used
Leave me in pieces
Misery is company
Cause I know that it's real
I've learned to love the pain
Cause that's the only way that I know how.

To feel your arms around my neck
I'm suffocating with regret from all the wasted hours spent
Believing I was never meant
To touch the face of something real
These sewn up scars will never heal
But I put down a deal
Cause that's only way that I know how to feel

Take me for granted
Make me feel used
Leave in pieces
Broken and bruised

Take me for granted
Make meI promise that you'll
Never keep on fallin' to pieces
Misery is company
Cause I know that it's real
I've learned to love the pain
Cause that the only way that I know how to feel

I know how to feel...
You're the only way that I know how to feel

Extra pictures~

2009-08-29T23:44:00.001+08:00

Photographer SharonW for outing~ =D
was picture shy. O.o
Hakim extra. xD

Whats the shop name?
O.o
Press for larger view. xD

2009-08-29T23:21:00.006+08:00

Lucky7!

Went to Tamp1 to buy stuff for teacher's day. =D
Met SharonW at library, then her "mom" Hong Hng came too. =D
Met others at Tm1.
Bought many stuff, had a nice day out. =)
.
Memories just flow freely through my head.

I just don't want them to stop. =/ =')

I want them to last forever.

like what it was suppose to be.

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Do enjoy this video~ =)
It's my 2nd brother playing the guitar.
American Idiot&Know your enemy

*Know your enemy starts at 3min*

By Greenday!

He crapped at some points of the songs too. xD

and his pick flew from his hand at the ending of Know your enemy -.-

please increase your computer volume~

Its kinda soft. =P
I'm learning alot from him on the guitar. =D
Learnt "It's all about you" by McFly already. =)

Yesterday~

2009-08-29T23:13:00.004+08:00

I can sing of your love forever. =D

Just planned to sleep.sleep. sleep. =D
Felt super exhausted on that day.
feel like half dead. D=
Read finish the Darren Shan book. =)
Don't really like whats turning out..
so many twist and turns in the book..
hard to absorb whats happening..

Went to sch for the nobody dance rehearsal?
Played scrabble with Lindsay and company.
Crapped on the guitar with Fion&"Ah siao" xD
The freaking rehearsal only started at 6+
-.-
Thats when Raymond and I left sch. =)

Went Bugis.
Planed to eat at Seoul Garden with Jiayi, Edwin, Hasjmy and Ardy. =D
but seoul garden damn full,
then me and ardy went Pastamania. =x
couldn't tahan liao =P
felt like passing out sia.
The others only started eating at 8.30 there. =P
Left them happily eating~

I bought fruit mix.
Ardy bought Starbucks.
buss33 home~

It's all about you~ =D

2009-08-27T22:50:00.007+08:00

Aaaarrrhhh!! =D
I feel so free! ^^
no more papers! x)
physics&Bio paper1 don't ~~freaking~~ count! =D
Zzzz..but Ardy says its best if you continue to study at this rate,
so as to get ready for Olvls..=/
No mood study liao. =D

Today's papers.
Physics&Bio paper 2.
i think both of them were screwed ._.
Just happy if i can get 60% =/
=)
Played basketball after papers -.-
I suck at bball. =D
felt super drained after playing. =P

Went home very EARLY! =)
Feel so good. =D
Started reading "Death's Shadow" !!!!
The 7th book for DARREN SHAN. =D
MUHAHAHA.
Once i see Xichun,
i'm gonna swing the book infront of her face. xD
make her envious. xP
Slept while reading the book. =)

The book. =D
Stare and marvel. =D

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Just came back from prayers~
Recently have been having dreams,
and i have a bad habit of controlling my dreams,
so yea,
Its all about you! =D
but, yesterday was different. =/
had the first bad dream for a long time. D=
Its kinda hurtful if you feel a person doesn't want to do anything with you.
and just wants you to go away huh? =/
to have nothing to do with you...
ouch.
whatever. =)

Blow Your worries away~! =D
"Worry does not empty tomorrow of its sorrow,
it empties today of its strength"